Till u came in my life

Thanks for breaking my heart by telling lies,

now at least i have a reason to cry;

Without it i had happiness,

u made me feel what is sadness;

I believed people are honest,

til u came in my life and told me what dishonesty is;

I believed in being faithful,

till u came in my life and i learnt what unfaithful means;

I thought my life is sad,

till u came in my life and i got to know what miserability is;

I believed in love,

till u came in my life and i got to know what hatred is;

I always spoke truth,

from you i heard only lies;

I used to think of loving,

now even this word has become disgusting;

I used to think only boys break heart,

but now i know girls topped the chart;

I used to think what a heartbreak is,

is it painful,

now i know it is full of pain day and night.

Lies, Lies and more Lies

For her it is just a word,

For me it is heart torn apart with a sword;

For her it means nothing,

Come and ask me how she means everything;

I am not a river where you can come to swim,

And leave it after you like it was nothing;

I am not air that you can breathe in,

And then release Carbon Dioxide as i am a sin;

I am not your gmail account that whenever you want you can login,

When you want log out and switch to another account as i become your recycle bin;

I am not a machine,

So please treat me like a human being;

I am not garbage or a useless thing,

Please don’t throw me in your dustbin;

I am not your emergency backup,

That when you have nothing, you can just take up;

Don’t think you are clever  and can lie to me easily,

It is just that i ignore everything and pretend i know nothing;

Whenever i call you your phone is waiting,

Don’t tell me that i am wrong when i say you are cheating;

The only thing that you do by lying,

is simply denying;

By lying you spit on my love,

It would be better if u leave and let me die;

Because there is no point of having your love,

With all your lies, it is like having sweet with no sugar in it;

Sometimes i wonder and ponder,

Why do i believe your lies,

When you lie all the time.

Would i ever love again

Would i like someone else,

as i like my girlfriend;

You look cute and beautiful,

would i say it again as i said it to you;

Would i take care of her,

as i took care of you;

 Would i be faithful to her,

as i was faithful to you;

Would i feel her pain,

as i felt you pain;

Would i smile with her,

as i smiled with you;

Would i cry when she would be in pain,

 as i cried for you;

Would i share her sorrow,

as i shared it with you;

Would i tell her that i will marry you,

as i told you again and again;

Would i believe her,

as i believed you;

Would i have a fear of losing her,

as i had fear of losing you;

Would i forgive her for cheating on me,

as i forgave you;

Would i hold her in my arms,

as i hold you;

Would i treat her like a princess,

as i treated you;

Would i be ready to go through hell for her,

as i was for you;

Everyday i think again and again,

would i ever love again.

Everything would be alright

When she talks to someone else,

my heart burns like hell;

She never understood my pain,

nor does she care to explain;

I have to live knowing nothing,

but i want to know everything;

I want to trust her again,

but the only thing that i get from her is pain;

She treated me like dirt,

my heart became desert;

I cried every night,

my heart fought my mind;

 I tried to be alone,

but my heart defeated my brain;

In the end what she did didn't matter,

i took her in my arms and i felt better;

My heart still burns with rage,

love has put my heart in a cage;

I miss her and love her,

like no one else;

Why am i still with her,

i don't understand;

I am trying to get everything in order,

trying to mitigate my pain;

I don't know whether i am wrong or right,

 because everyday my heart fights my mind;

My mind gives up easily;

because power of heart is divine over my mind;

I will go through hell,

i would even waste every blood cell;

I am confused and feeling low,

so let me go and let me find my friend sorrow;

A hope is there that everything would be fine,

everything would be alright.

I am dead inside

 Love has given me pain again and again,

no hope to recover again;

My feelings are gone,

my bad luck has won;

I may look happy and say i am fine,

but i am dead inside;

Everyday i cry,

tears dwell in my eyes;

I try to find love,

but it wants to get rid of me;

 A feeling of getting my heart ripped apart,

i can't see through cloud of sorrow with a broken heart;

I want to do a fresh start,

but i cant decide where to end , where to start;

I feel numb every moment,

it makes me scared;

I am not scared of darkness neither of sadness,

because these are my companions for the rest of my life;

Leave me alone so that,

 i can cry all night long;

This is my life,

i don't know whether i am dead or alive;

May be this is a dream,

that will be over soon;

There is no point of dying,

because i am already dead inside.