Darkness in my life

Without love my life was fine,

No happiness, no crying;

I got greedy for the first time,

Was trying to get that can never mine;

Did not know what I was trying,

Trying to feel love that was never mine;

When I think about that time,

Feels like I committed a crime;

An ocean of pure water in Sahara Desert,

I was trying to find;

Was hoping for an island in the middle of ocean,

Gave it too much devotion;

Was searching for water to quench my thirst,

Did not know that I was cursed;

Was trying to get drunk with wine of love,

I did not know that later it would hurt;

Was trying to write my name in her heart,

Did not know her heart was like sand,

My name was blown away by wind;

Loving her was like shouting on hill,

You can listen to only your sound ant then it is still,

It just broke my will;

She took out all colors from my life,

Leaving only darkness in my life.

La oscuridad en mi vida

Sin amor mi vida estuvo bien,

No hay felicidad, no hay llanto;

Me puse codicioso por primera vez,

Estaba tratando de conseguir que nunca pueda el mío;

No sabía lo que estaba tratando,

Tratando de sentir el amor que nunca fue mío;

Cuando pienso en ese momento,

Se siente como si hubiera cometido un crimen;

Un océano de agua pura en el desierto del Sahara,

Yo estaba tratando de encontrar;

Esperaba una isla en medio del océano,

Le dio demasiada devoción;

Estaba buscando agua para saciar mi sed,

No sabía que estaba maldito;

Estaba tratando de emborracharme con vino de amor,

No sabía que después dolería;

Estaba tratando de escribir mi nombre en su corazón,

No sabía que su corazón era como la arena,

Mi nombre fue arrastrado por el viento;

Amarla era como gritar en la colina,

Puedes escuchar solo tu hormiga sonora entonces está quieto,

Simplemente rompió mi voluntad;

Ella sacó todos los colores de mi vida,

Dejando solo la oscuridad en mi vida.

Till u came in my life

Thanks for breaking my heart by telling lies,

now at least i have a reason to cry;

Without it i had happiness,

u made me feel what is sadness;

I believed people are honest,

til u came in my life and told me what dishonesty is;

I believed in being faithful,

till u came in my life and i learnt what unfaithful means;

I thought my life is sad,

till u came in my life and i got to know what miserability is;

I believed in love,

till u came in my life and i got to know what hatred is;

I always spoke truth,

from you i heard only lies;

I used to think of loving,

now even this word has become disgusting;

I used to think only boys break heart,

but now i know girls topped the chart;

I used to think what a heartbreak is,

is it painful,

now i know it is full of pain day and night.

Lies, Lies and more Lies

For her it is just a word,

For me it is heart torn apart with a sword;

For her it means nothing,

Come and ask me how she means everything;

I am not a river where you can come to swim,

And leave it after you like it was nothing;

I am not air that you can breathe in,

And then release Carbon Dioxide as i am a sin;

I am not your gmail account that whenever you want you can login,

When you want log out and switch to another account as i become your recycle bin;

I am not a machine,

So please treat me like a human being;

I am not garbage or a useless thing,

Please don’t throw me in your dustbin;

I am not your emergency backup,

That when you have nothing, you can just take up;

Don’t think you are clever  and can lie to me easily,

It is just that i ignore everything and pretend i know nothing;

Whenever i call you your phone is waiting,

Don’t tell me that i am wrong when i say you are cheating;

The only thing that you do by lying,

is simply denying;

By lying you spit on my love,

It would be better if u leave and let me die;

Because there is no point of having your love,

With all your lies, it is like having sweet with no sugar in it;

Sometimes i wonder and ponder,

Why do i believe your lies,

When you lie all the time.

Would i ever love again

Would i like someone else,

as i like my girlfriend;

You look cute and beautiful,

would i say it again as i said it to you;

Would i take care of her,

as i took care of you;

 Would i be faithful to her,

as i was faithful to you;

Would i feel her pain,

as i felt you pain;

Would i smile with her,

as i smiled with you;

Would i cry when she would be in pain,

 as i cried for you;

Would i share her sorrow,

as i shared it with you;

Would i tell her that i will marry you,

as i told you again and again;

Would i believe her,

as i believed you;

Would i have a fear of losing her,

as i had fear of losing you;

Would i forgive her for cheating on me,

as i forgave you;

Would i hold her in my arms,

as i hold you;

Would i treat her like a princess,

as i treated you;

Would i be ready to go through hell for her,

as i was for you;

Everyday i think again and again,

would i ever love again.

Everything would be alright

When she talks to someone else,

my heart burns like hell;

She never understood my pain,

nor does she care to explain;

I have to live knowing nothing,

but i want to know everything;

I want to trust her again,

but the only thing that i get from her is pain;

She treated me like dirt,

my heart became desert;

I cried every night,

my heart fought my mind;

 I tried to be alone,

but my heart defeated my brain;

In the end what she did didn't matter,

i took her in my arms and i felt better;

My heart still burns with rage,

love has put my heart in a cage;

I miss her and love her,

like no one else;

Why am i still with her,

i don't understand;

I am trying to get everything in order,

trying to mitigate my pain;

I don't know whether i am wrong or right,

 because everyday my heart fights my mind;

My mind gives up easily;

because power of heart is divine over my mind;

I will go through hell,

i would even waste every blood cell;

I am confused and feeling low,

so let me go and let me find my friend sorrow;

A hope is there that everything would be fine,

everything would be alright.

I am dead inside

 Love has given me pain again and again,

no hope to recover again;

My feelings are gone,

my bad luck has won;

I may look happy and say i am fine,

but i am dead inside;

Everyday i cry,

tears dwell in my eyes;

I try to find love,

but it wants to get rid of me;

 A feeling of getting my heart ripped apart,

i can't see through cloud of sorrow with a broken heart;

I want to do a fresh start,

but i cant decide where to end , where to start;

I feel numb every moment,

it makes me scared;

I am not scared of darkness neither of sadness,

because these are my companions for the rest of my life;

Leave me alone so that,

 i can cry all night long;

This is my life,

i don't know whether i am dead or alive;

May be this is a dream,

that will be over soon;

There is no point of dying,

because i am already dead inside.